okay about my family. um (.) we (.) were all together (.) m:aybe about a little over a year before. and it was very nice to finally have um both of my sisters and my brother here. and my mom (.) was here. and it was nice. cause my mom was getting very sick (..) [m:] from her (.) um x- [points to brain] not remembering. and um... but then we lost my (..) brother out of no where. we were looking for him for (.) father's day. and he didn't answer. and so we went down there. and (.) he (.) was laying there. and he was dead. [I'm so sorry.] and it was horrible. I think it was a really hard thing of it just like me. because I'm not good at the (.) heat. it makes me sick. and it's really not good with the strokes and everything. and um (.) we said you know what's the last time you saw (..) my brother? and they said wow you know we saw him j- yesterday walking around (.) cleaning his stuff. and um (.) to washing it there. and holding it. you know heavy things. [gestures carrying heavy things] and that was a day when it was a hundred and six. and we're like oh my god jack what were you doing? you know? it's like I don't get why he was even doing it. so we think that was a part of it. but [m:] anyway. um (..) so now it was x- horrible for me. I lost my son out of a crazy thing and then like my brother [I'm so sorry.] x- like out of a crazy thing. and (.) right now um it changed everybody. changed everybody. and we're not all (.) together. we're kind of all (.) separate now. [mhm.] and as soon as I can I'm leaving. and uh it's gonna be brɪli bad for me. later: and if I'm only here a couple of years I wanna be a place where I'm happy. I um wanna be at the beach (...) əbʌt... it's in Oregon. there's a place called florence there. that I've been there. and I love it. up oregon. it's crazy. after I had this sɪŋk of my arm.... [gestures to arm]